The tulips are over now, but it was never just about the tulips
Tulips are among my favourite flowers and I can never resist their bright hopeful colours each Spring. I remember I had some beautiful red tulips in a vase in my bedroom in North London where my second son was born 30 years ago now. A home birth, the best and easiest of them all, my mother asleep in the bedroom above me, my 2 year old waking early to greet his new brother, astonished by the arrival of the tiny person he would grow up with, who would always be part of his life. Every year they creep into my home or grow in terracotta pots by the front door, as long as the dog doesn't get to them first! These are the last tulips this year - I love the contrast with the deep blue hyacinths, perfect for my blue and white birthday jug.
People still come to view the house from time to time, but for the moment we have no offers so no decision can be made. I can feel myself letting go bit by bit of all we have come to love here in East Anglia, but it is a real limbo we are in now. Who knows what the right decision will be?
I spent some time in Kent last week staying with an old friend and it felt so good to be there again, the chance meetings with people I go way back with, whose homes I have visited, whose children grew up with mine, whose history I have shared. I know in my heart where I want to be, where my home will be. When the time is right.
Hello Marianne,
ReplyDeleteTulips are amongst the most cheerful of flowers. They herald Spring and always look so very welcoming in either a formal vase or a pottery jug. One cannot go wrong with them. And, it is rather sad when their season is over. Your white ones look very attractive partnered with the blue hyacinths and the scent must be terrific.
It is dismal that you are still unsettled about your possible move. One can only be philosophical about these things and trust that everything will work out in the end.
These things go at their own pace. I am fairly relaxed about it at the moment - it will resolve, one way or another. Thank you for visiting!
DeleteTulips and hyacinths are lovely together, and your blue and white jug suits them so well.
ReplyDeletePerhaps house hunters will be showing more interest as the school year reaches summer vacation time? This seems to be true over here in the States. Meanwhile, do enjoy being in your garden. Perhaps you'll soon be having iris, peonies, rhodies and roses! xo
Hello Frances. We had another viewing this morning so there is a steady trickle of interest. Hopefully someone will love it as much as we do and make us an offer before too long. The roses are just about to burst into flower - English gardens are lovely in June.
DeleteI love this post, those tulips, the jug, the memories . . . and a sense of openness, I think, rather than resignation. You sound accepting of what will come, ready to set your new direction. I expect the second thoughts do come and go -- after all, it's a big move. But you sound ready for what comes, at least in this moment. . . .
ReplyDeleteYes, it does feel good to open up to possibilities. Things will resolve one way or another and life will go forward. Now for the roses!
DeleteIt's so hard to be in limbo and second thoughts are something that'll happen with such a different direction in life. Your photo is lovely, that jug and its contents would look lovely on my new kitchen worktop! :) Suzy x
ReplyDeleteThe jug and flowers would look lovely anywhere Suzy - flowers certainly do brighten up a room! Thank you for coming by x
Deletethanks for your comment today on the magnolia....I know exactly what you are talking about...this "limbo thing". First, I sold the farm that I dearly loved. This was two years ago and I purchased another home immediately. I can honestly say, I have not been settled in this place. So, now I am moving again. In all honestly, I probably wish I was back on the farm, in the familar places I loved so much.
ReplyDeleteThat's interesting Meggie. Some places feel like home, others never do. I have never settled here either, despite loving the house, and wonder if it's best to throw in the towel as soon as you realise it is not going to work, as you are doing. I do hope the next move is a good one for you.
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