Tuesday, 9 June 2009

Marry Me?

'Marry Me?' he said, out of a clear blue sky.

My world tilted momentarily on its axis. We had both said categorically that we would never marry again, so why did I find myself saying 'Yes' without even pausing to think? It just seemed to be the right, the only possible answer. If I thought about it I might find reasons not to, but all the important decisions in life come from somewhere beyond conscious thought. The lunchtime busyness of the seaside restaurant had settled and we were alone with our oysters and champagne, both of us now in tears as he took me in his arms and kissed me.



Life has been very unsettled recently as I struggle to let go of the trappings of my old life and move into the new one that is opening up for me, and sometimes I am so scared to let go. After all, it has been a long, hard journey, rebuilding my life after it was torn apart; raising my boys to be confident young men, able to live satisfying, independent lives; finding friends, homes, work, fulfillment for myself on my own terms and while I don't think it will always be easy, to merge my life with someone else's, it is my new challenge and I shall give it all I can.


We plan to move to East Anglia in the summer after my youngest son finishes school. He has a new life opening up to him too, as he hopes to go on to University in the Autumn, all being well, the grades being right. At last he is beginning to take control of his life and to do what has to be done to achieve his goals.


I know this is not the end of my story, but it is the end of this particular chapter and, whatever problems we face in the future, we face them together.

22 comments:

  1. I am so happy for you. I travelled your journey and, fourteen years into my second marriage, would change none of it. all the very best to both of you.

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  2. Dearest Elizabeth, thank you for your good wishes and support along the way. You have been a great comfort to me over the last year or so. I shall have to start a new blog now as I hope to have more time when I finish working next month.

    I shall come and check up on you.

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  3. This is just the best possible news. I even love your choice of East Anglia - I love the sky in Suffolk. FABULOUS!

    DM x

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  4. Please keep in touch DM and I look forward to hearing your news. I would love to know what is going on in your life! M x

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  5. This is wonderful news, Marianne!

    I seldom visit blogland these days, so found your latest posts quite by chance. I just want you to know how simply delighted I am for you though, and how much happiness I wish you in the future.

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  6. Thank you for your good wishes, Beatrice. You are much missed in blogland.

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  7. Over a month late for this news! Many congratulations and much happiness, Marianne! Where in East Anglia are you bound? We're on the very western edge (the bit that has hills.)

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  8. Wow, it's so good to hear from you again Dick - and all my old chums. Thank you. Moving next week, so all is pretty frantic right now. We are in the softly rolling bit. Will visit soon, when time allows.

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