It just sort of creeps up on you, sometime after the last firework fizzles out, and before you know it there's just a few days to go and a whole Christmas production to put on. If I didn't do it, who would? I don't think any of the people who will be sitting around my table this Christmas Day would consider making Christmas happen, and yet each year somehow it all comes together and we always have a magical day.
This Christmas will be bitter-sweet for me, as I know I will have to leave this lovely house sometime in the coming year, I know change is coming, so amongst all the giving and receiving, the sense of family and love and warmth, there will be sadness too.
I don't know what happens next; my future is an open book and the next chapter has no heading yet. I just hope I can find a way through this maze, and keep shining.
Hi marianne, have a lovely Christmas and hope your changing year is a good one.
ReplyDeleteStill think you should come and stay in our holiday cottage sometime, promise to leave you alone!
Having been in a similar situation to you, I want you to be reassured that I STILL find myself reflecting at times, especially Christmas and New YEar. It is natural...
ReplyDeleteI wish you all that you wish for yourself in the new year Marianne. Change is hard. But you have adapted thus far. You are strong and you will get through next year just as you have got through the last.
Everything has a habit of turning out alright in the end...even if it doesn't seem like it at the time.
Best wishes to you and yours for a happy and peaceful Christmas.
Be kind to yourself.
xx
It's interesting, how do we 'choose' to be the person running the Christmas production? Is it because we did it once by accident and then it became our job?
ReplyDeleteA sad thought that you have to leave your home, I hope you find somewhere you love as much.
Have a lovely Christmas,
Pigx
Happy Christmas to you too Elizabeth. It would be lovely to come and stay in your cottage and I do have it very much in mind. I would love to meet you too, as I so much enjoy your blog and appreciate your continued interest in mine.
ReplyDeleteAngel, how lovely to hear from you again and thank you for your good wishes. I'm afraid I've been credit crunched - it's always those closest to the edge who fall off first. I'm struggling to remain optimistic, but hope the Christmas spirit will see me through.
ReplyDeleteYou are so right that even the worst situations have a tendency to turn out well in the end. But there's always a niggling feeling that maybe this time ...
Have a good Christmas x
Thank you. And to you too PITK. I have visions of myself in some 19th century workhouse, or housekeeper to some tyrannical Mr Rochester, or even worse, Mrs Rochester! An active imagination can be a curse as well as a blessing.
ReplyDeleteYes, I'm not quite sure how we become to be the one who does everything for everyone. When the children were small, it was me who bought their presents for Granny, etc, Granny's present for them, etc, etc.
I think the answer is to do it very badly, then you never get asked again. Very difficult for a perfectionist like me! Have a good one. x
I have no doubt about it, you will keep shining! You have a great positive attitude.
ReplyDeleteChristmas has snuck up on me too. Eek it's nearly here...
Merry Christmas Marianne :-)
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And to you too Merry. Hope to see you next year. x
ReplyDeleteI am happy that life is moving on and being kind to you Marianne. You deserve goodness and kindness. I feel that in my bones. Happy New Year
ReplyDeleteI hope everything comes together Marianne.
ReplyDeleteHave a Happy New Year.
Sometimes change is a worthy delicious tonic.
Thank you Isobel and I hope you have a happy 2009 too
ReplyDeleteStill working on the changes Jan. Will write again when I feel things are more stable. Have a Happy 2009 x
ReplyDeleteHope you are getting sorted. Let us know! x
ReplyDeleteHi M&M. Good to see you again. The problems are coming thick and fast. The solutions, I hope, will follow soon!
ReplyDeleteHello Marianne, I hope that 2009 is a year of glorious, not awful, change. I'm facing that challenge myself as it happens and - well, that probably colours my words!
ReplyDeleteHappy New Year
Livvy
Hi Livvy. I've been checking to see what was happening in your world, so it's good to see you're blogging again. Sorry everything is so difficult for you at the moment. I wish you all the courage in the world, so you can bring yourself and Annam through the maze and out the other side, into the light.
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