Monday, 11 August 2008

Now (and then)

Staying in the moment is one of life's hardest lessons and one I wish I could have learned better a long time ago.

When I met my ex-husband, I was always thinking about the next step - moving from dating to being in a relationship, then living together, eventually getting married, buying a house, having a baby, then another baby and then another, buying and selling more houses, always searching for the dream, without realising that I had it all the time. Sadly for me, the dream turned into a nightmare and the road ultimately led to separation, divorce, the break-up of my family and massive financial insecurity.

My life is very different now, not better nor worse, just different. It is only when devastation is complete that rebirth can begin. I can hope and dream about tomorrow, but for now I have today. And it's enough.

6 comments:

  1. I think that's a lesson a lot of us could do with learning... to live in the moment - I for one am always stressing about what has been and what's to come and find myself not really enjoying today!

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  2. Hi Ladybanana. Nice to know you are out there, somewhere lost in cyberspace.

    I remember when I had my eureka moment, not so long ago. I was lying in the bath relaxed, thoughts free flowing, and I asked myself what I would most regret when I am dying. And the answer came to me that the thing I struggle with most is living in the moment and appreciating what I have. Once I realised that it was easier to focus on the positives and the more I do that, the more they come into my life. I try to hold onto that every day, even when it's hard.

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  3. I was very ill a couple of years ago - did wonders for being able to live in the moment.

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  4. Yes, Elizabeth, I think it is when everything we take for granted is threatened that we truly learn to appreciate what we have.

    I hope you are keeping well now.

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  5. I think that is a very good mantra.

    Even though I have been in your situation and me and my hubby stayed together in the end, I adopt your philosophy...and always will.

    x

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  6. People's lives are fascinating Angel. I should love to know more about my blogging friends.

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